Lottie Loves by Samie Sands

Author:Samie Sands [Sands, Samie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Limitless Publishing LLC
Published: 2017-10-23T16:00:00+00:00

27th May 2007

So, it turns out all that worry was for nothing. Joe snuck up for a quick chat after dinner and we really cleared the air. We’re going to be together, but keep it between us just for now. Then, just before he left, Joe lightly pressed his lips up against mine again in a way that felt incredible.

Our first kiss might have been a little…weird, but this one blew my mind.

Everything is solidified now. We’re going to be just fine.

Chapter Seventeen

“Oh God, no,” I muttered angrily to myself as I looked through my clothes spread out on the small bed in front of me. I thought I’d packed all kinds of different outfits, to ensure I had a decent choice with me, but now as I glanced through it all, it was obvious none of it was good enough. I needed to get the exact right mix of casual and cute, and I didn’t seem to have anything that worked.

In an attempt to convince myself I wasn’t acting like this was some kind of crazy first date, I told myself I’d be just as worried about what I looked like, whoever I was going to meet from my school days…but I knew I wouldn’t. I knew it was just because it was him. I knew it was because I wanted Joe to see what he’d lost out on. I wanted him to regret letting me go. It might not have been the right way to feel, but I couldn’t help that.

As the time of our meet up drew nearer, my nerves intensified, I started to feel sick to my stomach, almost pulling out of the meeting more than once. I kept grabbing my phone and typing out cancellation text messages before deleting them rapidly. I needed to do this, however scary it was. I had to wade through this door, I couldn’t leave it half open any longer, it was driving me insane.

“Come on, Lottie,” I whispered to my reflection in the mirror, trying my best to rearrange my face until it looked semi-normal. “You can’t keep balancing on this knife edge anymore.” One day I would slip and fall, one day it wouldn’t be possible anymore. I needed to end this now, while the opportunity was there.

I allowed my eyes to slip shut for a second, before sucking in some deep, calming breaths. Then, I reached forward and grabbed a sparkly top, fit for sixteen-year-old Lottie, a pair of jeans, and some ballet flats. Joe wasn’t much taller than me anyway, so I never wore heels around him, making it feel like the most obvious choice in the world. I was acutely aware that I’d gone the whole hog now, and completely reverted back to the teenage version of myself, but I didn’t even care. I couldn’t see it going any other way.

Knock, knock…

“Mum? Is that you?” I asked, growing more and more frustrated with her. “I’m getting changed.” She probably meant well, but she was driving me insane with her constant, seemingly meaningless, interruptions.

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